About WILD in Recovery
Wild in Recovery helps women who are seeking recovery from addiction to heal, transform, and find their POWER. We also support women who are already in recovery, to take their healing and transformation to the next level! Wild in Recovery connects women, like you, to their TRIBE, and enables them to find a sustainable and thriving recovery by providing holistic practices that support and integrate mind, body, heart, and soul.
Why do we need a mind, body, heart, and soul approach? Because we cannot separate the parts from the system—we are one system, which works together, and we cannot be reduced to parts; we are meant to be whole. While our fast-paced, western society has left us deeply fragmented, we can recover the pieces and we can recover and reclaim our essence. We can recover who we are at our core, uncover our truth, and live the life we know deep in our soul that we were born to live. Healing from addiction in a holistic manner, in a way that gets us in touch with all aspects of ourselves, helps us to begin to uncover what is keeping us from psychologically feeling whole and integrated—so we can create change. We can transform our lives. we can recover. Learn more about holistic recovery and mind, body, heart, and soul here.
Why a program specifically for women?
Because as women, we have for years been trying to obtain equality in a man’s world– and that just doesn’t work for so many of us. We constantly try to mold ourselves to fit into men’s programs that were designed by men, for men. The reality is that we are different– our bodies are different, our brains are different, our hormones are different and because of this our needs are different. Studies on women and addiction have found that:
• Women who struggle with addiction are two times more likely than men to have an affective disorder such as anxiety and depression. In fact, women are four times more likely than men to struggle with anxiety and in our attempts to deal with our dis-ease we often turn to substances to self-medicate.
• Women are more likely than men to suffer from guilt, shame, and struggle with low self-esteem
• Women are more likely than men to use substances to relieve stress. We are more often than not the primary caregivers of our children while also working and tending to the home, as a result we are more stressed than ever!
• Women are more likely to have suffered from trauma, and as a result, self-medicate the pain and stress that trauma brings into our lives.
• Women are physiologically more vulnerable to the effects of alcohol than men. It creates stress and dis-ease in our unique systems and as such, it is even more imperative for us to address our drinking and other addictive behaviors as soon as we feel the call.
• Because of the hormonal fluctuations we experience every month as a result of our menstrual cycles, our neurological reality is not as constant as a man’s and this reality impacts both our addiction and recovery.
• More so than men we are hard-wired for connection, and as such when we are lacking connection or there is disharmony in our relationships we are more likely to self-medicate the painful emotions and stress that arise.
• We have more cells available in our brain to track body sensation, which punches up the brain’s ability to track and feel painful emotions as they register in the body. Our emotional reality is incredibly different from a man’s and it is imperative that that the body and emotions are an integral component in women’s recovery.
• While the feminist movement has made great gains, we have for years been seeking equality in a man’s world. This has left us deeply imbalanced and it is time that we reclaim our power by tapping into our unique strengths and unique needs.
“Caring for yourself is not self-care, it is self-preservation, which is an act of political warfare.”
— Rae Johnson
Addiction robs us of our power and because the sober woman can embower herself, she becomes a force that is unstoppable. It’s time to step into our power. Many women are suffering, and the paradox of addiction is that our addictive substance or behavior is used to relieve this suffering, but ultimately all it does is reinforce our suffering—it’s a negative feedback loop. The good news is: we can heal. We can heal by tapping into our unique strengths and tending to our unique needs. When we listen and tend to the mind, body, heart, and soul we uncover our truth. We uncover our essence and from there, we find out what it is we need to do in order to transform our lives.
Our personal healing is also collective healing; the microcosm effects the macrocosm. Together, we can create change. WILD in Recovery brings women together, to do this incredibly powerful, transformative, and healing work.
Why WILD? Aren’t I trying to get away from being wild?
The aim of WILD in recovery is to uncover, recover, and reclaim the WILD woman—the woman who is our essence. She lives inside of us and is longing to be free. She is who you are at your core, and her power is immense.
Who is the WILD woman?
W.arrior living a life of freedom.
I.nspired, intuitive, inventive
L.iberated and empowered
D.etermined and unstoppable
In active addiction and early recovery most of us feel far from WILD. Instead, we feel wild in the sense of being out of control, reckless, and self-destructive. I’ve been there. Life feels turbulent and our behavior is often wild and erratic. Let’s face it– addiction is wild and messy. Early recovery is wild and messy. LIFE is wild and messy. However, with the right tools, the right support, the right community, we can find our way. We can redefine ourselves and we can redefine wild. We can take back our power and step into big WILD living, liberated from addiction, we can THRIVE.
A WILD woman doesn’t fit into a box. She doesn’t settle. She is a rebellious seeker. She seeks the truth, and lives her truth. She lives courageously and knows she can do hard things. She knows how to have FUN. If you are WILD at heart, but something is holding you back and keeping you from the life you want to be living, join the WILD in Recovery community to find the support you need to create a sustainable and thriving recovery.
I am a lay-it-all-out-there kind of person. I enjoy being around authentic people, and I always strive to be authentic as well, not to hold anything back. What you see is what you get. I am paradoxically spiritual, contemplative and love to go deep, but at the same time, I love to be wild, crass and use what some consider to be “inappropriate language.” What can I say?!? I’m human, and therefore, complex. As Walt Whitman says in his poem, Song of Myself, “Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes).” Hyperactive, depressed, and chronically unsatisfied–these are the words that immediately come to mind when I reflect back on my teenage years. I felt as though I was trapped in my body, never feeling comfortable, and always wanting to escape. I often felt out of control–especially when I was riding on one of my very high, highs or one of my very low, lows. I loved to be crass and shockingly inappropriate—some things never change. I am happy to have removed depressed and chronically unsatisfied from the list of words that currently describes me.
Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes).
Reflecting on my experience as a teen, I always felt confined and trapped, not only by the institution of public school, but I experienced my inner life in this regard as well. I wanted to end it all. I didn’t think that I would ever be happy. I sought out help and began therapy and medication to treat my depression and ADHD. Things started to improve. A few years later, I found myself in college, and I decided that I no longer needed medication; that I could handle life on my own terms. But unfortunately, mental health issues don’t disappear overnight. I began to heavily self-medicate–using cigarettes, alcohol, and pot on a daily basis to cope with the demons in my head.
After attaining my Master’s in Education, I began my career. Throughout my 20’s I was a well-loved, successful elementary school teacher. I kept my depression in a lovely little box that I only opened when the school day was over, in the privacy of my home; it was then that I would drown myself in substances in an attempt numb my pain. I was disassociated and disconnected, often rejecting various aspects of myself. My friends loved my funny, hyper, eccentric side, but in reality, I often felt so hyper I wanted to crawl out of my skin. And in an attempt to find relief, I often made choices that were harmful to myself as well as to those that I loved the most. I had a beautiful daughter and married my college sweetheart at age 25, believing that having a child would help to solve my problems and get me away from the booze and tobacco, but as all of you who have kids know, having a small child and a new marriage only exacerbated the situation. I found myself divorced at age 26, intently searching for happiness in all the wrong places. I quickly remarried and at 26 years old I was juggling a career, a toddler, and because of my new marriage, I became a step-mom to three amazing children. We decided to expand our brood and had a child together (don’t ask me what I was thinking!!!) but I am so happy that we did as I can’t imagine life without any of these kids! Now we had “yours, mine, and ours”—a blended family of five children! Much of the time my life felt like pure chaos. I felt as though I should be happy—I had a wonderful husband, healthy children, a successful career, a beautiful house and a nice car. Everything so many people dream of having, and yet I was often deeply depressed. I was drinking excessively and living in fantasy land always thinking, “I’ll be happy when…”
Change happens in a moment.
I hit another rock bottom at 31 years old and was ready to leave yet another marriage. I knew something had to change. I did not want to be this person. I did not want to break up my family. I did not want to be drowning myself in alcohol. I did not want to continue on the career path I had chosen. Something HAD to change, and I was scared shitless because I didn’t know where to begin. I wish I could say I was like Eckhart Tolle or Byron Katie who both just woke up from their suffering one day; their thinking had changed, and as a result, their lives had changed forever, seemingly overnight. But noooooooo….that was not my experience–definitely not my experience. I’ve always been one who has to learn the hard way. I took what Seth Godin likes to call the ‘longcut.’ Most people who end up achieving what it is they are seeking take the longcut—because you will rarely find shortcuts to success or happiness. As Tony Robbins likes to say, “Change happens in a moment.” However, it can often take 10-plus years to get to that key moment. I decided I couldn’t do this on my own – I needed help. I got a therapist. I also found Meadow DeVor’s group, the Rowdies—a group dedicated to self-transformation and healing. I took every self-help and personal development training that Meadow offered. I voraciously read self-help books. I went to countless transformational retreats and workshops. I completed a certification program and began to practice EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique). I took Martha Beck’s Life Coach Training.
In between all of this I embarked on several attempts at sobriety, always to relapse. I trained at Nosara Yoga Institute and completed my 200-RYT and started teaching yoga. I studied Positive Psychology for ten months through Kripalu Center for Yoga & Health. I studied the work of Carolyn Myss and completed her course on Archetypal Energy. I received my second 200-RYT and Life Coach certification through Yoga Church Teacher Training. It was through the experience of combining yoga with coaching that my mind, body, heart and soul began to integrate into one voice, and it was calling out to me: “Get sober. Do whatever it takes.” I knew I had to listen, my well-being, my family’s well-being, my LIFE, depended on it. I went to rehab and got sober. I sought out help from a few masterful coaches and therapists, and I began to integrate and accept all aspects of myself and finally started to feel like I was healing. That I could handle this wonderful adventure we call life. Now don’t get me wrong, there is no end-point when it comes to happiness or healing. It is a lifelong practice as we continue to experience life in all its dimensions. But I have healed much of the past, have stopped resisting and denying aspects of myself, and I can now say…I am HAPPY. I love my life. I am excited to wake up in the morning and contribute to this world. My passion is to help others feel the same, because depression sucks. Feeling shitty sucks. Feeling like life is just one big awful chore sucks. Being trapped in addiction SUCKS. We all deserve more.
Today I am working on a Ph.D. in Depth Psychology with a Specialization in Somatic Studies. My Ph.D. is focused on practices that support a holistic recovery for women. I am also teaching yoga, and coaching women one on one by utilizing tools that combine the gentle practice of yoga with coaching, and also using Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) to help my clients somatically and psychologically release that which is not serving them.
The bottom line is my path to health and wholeness has been a wild, messy ride–because life is a wild, messy ride. And although I’ve done several shitty things in my past, I would not change anything, because nothing is wasted. Every experience has helped me to become the woman I am today. A woman who lives life to the fullest has direction and purpose, who is connected to her body and is compassionate and empathetic. A woman who wants to be of service. A woman who is open minded and looking forward to all that life throws her way. A woman who is kind and accepting of herself. A woman who is now experiencing joy on a level she never thought possible. A woman who is living life in full color. A woman who is dedicated to serving women like you. I couldn’t have done it without all the help I received along the way and through my journey I have learned that we are not meant to do this alone.
…you have had quite a wild ride as well because after all, we are all human. We are in this together and you don’t have to walk this path alone. WILD in Recovery offers you the support and community you need to free yourself from addiction. As I stated earlier, I didn’t know where to begin—WILD in Recovery is that place I wish I had years ago, a starting point. It is also a place for continued support—something we all need. Wild in Recovery utilizes best practices that address the WHOLE person, that address the right and left sides of the brain; the rational and logical with the creative and imaginative. If you are a seeker like me, if you are seeking to feel whole, to break through limiting beliefs, to live more mindfully and be more present, if you want to take your life to the next level, if you want to leave your addiction behind once and for all, join us today to uncover your unique path, and inquire deeply into your inner experience. We can transform from being endless ‘seekers,’ to also being ‘finders.’ You can find what you are looking for. Again, to channel Tony Robbins, YOU ARE FUCKING UNSTOPPABLE—you can achieve and BE all that you desire.
I have intensely studied and practiced the tools I have learned to free myself from addiction through my many years of personal development and from my numerous degrees and certifications. WILD in Recovery is a place dedicated to bringing this learning to you so that you too can utilize these tools to create the life you desire. Change is available to us all. Right in this moment. If you are ready, if your soul is calling out to you, if your gut is saying: “go this way,” then take the leap and dive in head-first. Prepare to dive deep, because that is where the magic happens.
Why did you start WILD in Recovery?
I believe our wounds are our greatest gifts. I believe that we learn best from following those who have walked the same path and found success. I want to be of service to women who are struggling, because while struggle is a necessary part of life, it shouldn’t all be a struggle. We were born to also have immense joy and to THRIVE. Women more than ever need to find their power, and I believe we find our power by joining up with a community of strong, like-minded women. My goal is to create that community–a community that informs, connects, and empowers women.
We learn best from following those who have walked the same path and found success.
What events led to the founding of your business?
I have felt for many years that it is deeply important to be an ally to my fellow sisters. I have learned so much and taken so many trainings and earned many certifications and degrees, and I believe that I MUST share this learning with others. Knowledge is not mean to be hoarded for oneself, but to be shared. I also deeply believe that our society is in crisis–we are more addicted than ever. We are in pain. We are destroying ourselves. There are not enough options out there for women to find a place that supports them in recovery. Most women cannot afford to leave their children behind while they head off to rehab for 30 plus days. Not to mention the fact that most rehabs are based on the principles of Alcoholics Anonymous which has a dismal success rate. Check out the documentary, The Business of Recovery. Alcoholics Anonymous is the most widely spread and well known form of recovery support, and yet it was founded by white Christian men, for white Christian men. And while it has come a long ways since it’s initial beginnings, I do not believe that it provides the type of holistic support that most women need. I 100% knew, without a doubt, that it was not a program for me. If you have that same sense, join us here at WILD in Recovery, which is designed specifically with YOU in mind.